It’s been a hell of a long time since I last updated! But I think it’s been a good break.
My current schedule: Writing from 11pm-5am, sleep till 2-3pm, go work out for ~2 hours, then errands/reading before writing again.
- It’s been an emotional few months for GIRL WITH THE BROKEN SKIN. Because Draft 3 was so stagnant for months I wondered if I would ever finish. But since returning to being a night owl, I’ve made so much more progress. I’m halfway through the book now.
- Draft 3 is for the cursory details – setting, culture, politics; everything but the main storyline.
- Draft 3 is also about flow and adding/removing scenes and details.
- I plan to query after I finish Draft 3.
- I’ve always had an interest in fitness, and started weightlifting in 2014, but last October 2015 my interest rose to a whole new level. I started listening to podcasts and reading books on nutrition and training. I realized I’m really interested in exercise physiology and its relationship with nutrition.
- I also discovered street workout (calisthenics on floors, bars, pbars, etc) and it immediately became my long-term goal. I’d been wondering where to take my weightlifting next — whether to try a powerlifting competition or a figure competition — but once I saw this sport, I knew that was it. I was a gymnast for 10 years and, since quitting, have been trying to find something that combined strength, balance, and flexibility in a way that made me feel free. Also, bars was my favorite event so it isn’t surprising why this sport drew me in.
- Those 2 combined (a technical interest in training/nutrition + a goal – street workout) have given me a new passion in my training.
WRITING + TRAINING – SUMMING UP
A large part in why my writing became stagnant as my training regimen became more serious was the fact that they were such opposing forces. Which is why after I split the two up (one for the daytime, one for the nighttime), my writing flow returned.
Working out is an all-in mentality. It’s forceful and “loud” inside my body. It’s straightforward and one of the many reasons why I love it. I love reading and learning more about nutrition and weight training because it is, in some ways, very concrete. The pain I feel is temporary and when it leaves me, I feel lighter and so much stronger than I was before. And what it rewards me with is something very tactile and visual. It permeates into the people around me. It is a sociable activity. Mentally, it makes me a happier person—it feeds me the energy to be the kind of normal human being I aim to be.
Writing is also an all-in mentality, but it’s very different. It’s quiet and subtle, it requires me to dig deep in my psyche and ask myself questions that don’t always have harmless responses. Writing asks me to reopen wounds and maybe even create new ones by realizing new parts of myself. It requires me to live in other people’s minds, to feel their happiness and anger and sadness…and it’s exhausting. But it what it rewards me is a fulfillment unrivaled by none other. To understand myself and the world just a little more is so precious to me. Writing, though, subdues me. It makes me the hermit that I am already inclined to be and, because of that, it has actually has decreased my quality of just living. I don’t live in my reality. I live in my dreams.
But together I feel whole – mentally and physically.